This few weeks, the feel is getting stronger. there are so many times i want to talk to her but i just cant fnd a reason to talk to her. the lesser i talk to her, the stronger the feeling. i am helpless. i have no idea what to do. worse of all, there is nobody that understand how i feel, nobody to talk to about this matter. all i can do is try to focus on other things and try not to think about it. lucky the next two days got training, during training i can flush all of it out and focus on training.